When I was little, I recall a time when my dad’s heart was heavy, his smile was gone and our house was somber. His best friend, Craig, had killed himself and my dad had to identify his body. My parents kept the details from me, but this generality was plenty. About a decade ago, my childhood friend went into her brother’s room to find he had shot himself under his blankets. About a half-decade ago, my cousin killed himself in his car in the garage. In 1996 and 2000, I attempted to. And a few years ago, my middle school crush killed himself at home. Today, I don’t write this post from any perspective other than my own. And from it, I have seen that suicide is not the answer. I am glad my attempts grossly failed. I have lived to see the goodness of God in my life and his miracle in my comeback. God determined the day I would arrive–and I trust his timing on the day I should leave. It’s too big of a burden to be responsible for the coming and going of a life. The sculpture does not tell the potter when to display it and when to shelf it. I am thankful to live because my boys need a mom, my husband needs a wife, my friends need a buddy. No matter how deep the valley, how dark the sky, how slimy the pit, there are people who need me and in their lives, I can not be replaced by anyone else. The verse I love so much, about the preciousness of life, is when Jesus promised, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” My life has tried to be stolen–but with Jesus–I have had the joy of living it. I hope this encourages someone today.
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More people rely on you than you could ever imagine momma!
Blessings
More people rely on you than you could ever imagine momma!
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Very will said Heather…. God has a hope and a future for us all. We all matter to Him.
Very will said Heather…. God has a hope and a future for us all. We all matter to Him.
Hello my dear. I won’t start this with my usual “FUNK!” As I am in a somber mood myself. It isn’t because anyone has tried to commit suicide that is in my life. It is actually because I struggle a lot. The majority of my struggle, most of the time, is if what I do in life actually matters. I started my blog a few years ago, and I have faithfully kept it up and with consistent content. My blog (believe it or not) was started not because someone told me to do it, or I wanted to start a blog of my own, but more extraordinary then that. It was started less than a year into my walk with Jesus, and I received a vision from God as I stared out of my then lovely apartment window.
In the vision I was sitting as it were “indian-style” on top of a rusted and broken down vehicle. Right next to me came a whirlwind. This whirlwind was so close to me, the hairs on my arms if they were to have stood up would’ve been touched by the whirlwind. This whirlwind was a scary sight as it had jagged knives and daggers circulating fiercely about, yet oddly enough I was as calm as could be. I would not move from my position.
Next in the vision, I was inside of the rusted, broken down vehicle, yet it was split in two halves. On one half (the right side) I was on, and what was made known to me, on the other half (left side) were two demons. I immediately jumped to the other side and (here’s the part many when I share this look at me weird) with my iPhone in hand, I strongly started to maneuver my hand at the face of the demons as to deliver a knockout blow.
When I was no longer in the vision, the Lord said, now you will start your ministry; “Ministry in Technology” and on that very day three years ago, I opened up my blog on blogger.com. Since then it was hacked into and the Lord encouraged me to open it back up and shortly into it, He inspired me to change the title from Ministry in Technology (Cool name though) to what it currently and affectionately is titled “Into MY HEART.” It’s still a ministry in technology but no longer titled as such.
The reason I am somber and often struggling, is the fact that I wonder if all the time, attention, reading, studying, etc, etc… that I put into this ministry, actually matters. I try not to fall into the trap of measuring myself up to and comparing myself to others, but three years and only 5 people following the blog, and even those 5, I really don’t think they actually read the content, except for maybe 2 or 3 of them. I have seldom received a comment. I don’t know if blogger is a good platform to be on or not. I’m not an expert with social media or self-marketing. I’m not really a people person, or rather an extrovert, but I am transparent and I believe I write exactly what comes from the very heart of God, to my heart for the precious hearts out there who are need of being loved and loving others.
I do have almost 11,000 views, but I don’t really know if that is a good thing or not. It shows my content has been viewed in about 15 countries throughout the world, yet I still struggle with the whole thing. I very much enjoy writing. It’s my great joy. I don’t receive nor have I produced any wealth from it at all. I have had comments on Facebook and instagram that have been encouraging towards my blog, but I still struggle with the whole thing.
Your post today, help me and encouraged me believe it or not. Why? Because Jesus has given me an identity, and an ability to reach out to others in a unique way. I for the majority of my life saw myself as dumb or insignificant and on many, many occasions just wanted to die, yet I wasn’t courageous (if that is the word to use) enough to truly entertain the idea of suicide. Maybe it isn’t courage but sheer desperation to stop the hurt that drives someone to take their own life. At any rate, I thank you for always being transparent. We haven’t actually spoken to one another apart from my comments on your blog or an exchange from you or I on Facebook, but I do appreciate the way you write, the way you’re transparent and your creativity with words as well as the way your website is done. It’s actually the coolest “blog” format site I’ve seen.
This is certainly a long comment and most people lose interest in long comments or blogs, but I do hope it will find you well and your eyes will not only glance it over, but take it all in and possibly respond back.
Till next time FUNK,
-Flavio.
Hello my dear. I won’t start this with my usual “FUNK!” As I am in a somber mood myself. It isn’t because anyone has tried to commit suicide that is in my life. It is actually because I struggle a lot. The majority of my struggle, most of the time, is if what I do in life actually matters. I started my blog a few years ago, and I have faithfully kept it up and with consistent content. My blog (believe it or not) was started not because someone told me to do it, or I wanted to start a blog of my own, but more extraordinary then that. It was started less than a year into my walk with Jesus, and I received a vision from God as I stared out of my then lovely apartment window.
In the vision I was sitting as it were “indian-style” on top of a rusted and broken down vehicle. Right next to me came a whirlwind. This whirlwind was so close to me, the hairs on my arms if they were to have stood up would’ve been touched by the whirlwind. This whirlwind was a scary sight as it had jagged knives and daggers circulating fiercely about, yet oddly enough I was as calm as could be. I would not move from my position.
Next in the vision, I was inside of the rusted, broken down vehicle, yet it was split in two halves. On one half (the right side) I was on, and what was made known to me, on the other half (left side) were two demons. I immediately jumped to the other side and (here’s the part many when I share this look at me weird) with my iPhone in hand, I strongly started to maneuver my hand at the face of the demons as to deliver a knockout blow.
When I was no longer in the vision, the Lord said, now you will start your ministry; “Ministry in Technology” and on that very day three years ago, I opened up my blog on blogger.com. Since then it was hacked into and the Lord encouraged me to open it back up and shortly into it, He inspired me to change the title from Ministry in Technology (Cool name though) to what it currently and affectionately is titled “Into MY HEART.” It’s still a ministry in technology but no longer titled as such.
The reason I am somber and often struggling, is the fact that I wonder if all the time, attention, reading, studying, etc, etc… that I put into this ministry, actually matters. I try not to fall into the trap of measuring myself up to and comparing myself to others, but three years and only 5 people following the blog, and even those 5, I really don’t think they actually read the content, except for maybe 2 or 3 of them. I have seldom received a comment. I don’t know if blogger is a good platform to be on or not. I’m not an expert with social media or self-marketing. I’m not really a people person, or rather an extrovert, but I am transparent and I believe I write exactly what comes from the very heart of God, to my heart for the precious hearts out there who are need of being loved and loving others.
I do have almost 11,000 views, but I don’t really know if that is a good thing or not. It shows my content has been viewed in about 15 countries throughout the world, yet I still struggle with the whole thing. I very much enjoy writing. It’s my great joy. I don’t receive nor have I produced any wealth from it at all. I have had comments on Facebook and instagram that have been encouraging towards my blog, but I still struggle with the whole thing.
Your post today, help me and encouraged me believe it or not. Why? Because Jesus has given me an identity, and an ability to reach out to others in a unique way. I for the majority of my life saw myself as dumb or insignificant and on many, many occasions just wanted to die, yet I wasn’t courageous (if that is the word to use) enough to truly entertain the idea of suicide. Maybe it isn’t courage but sheer desperation to stop the hurt that drives someone to take their own life. At any rate, I thank you for always being transparent. We haven’t actually spoken to one another apart from my comments on your blog or an exchange from you or I on Facebook, but I do appreciate the way you write, the way you’re transparent and your creativity with words as well as the way your website is done. It’s actually the coolest “blog” format site I’ve seen.
This is certainly a long comment and most people lose interest in long comments or blogs, but I do hope it will find you well and your eyes will not only glance it over, but take it all in and possibly respond back.
Till next time FUNK,
-Flavio.