If anyone’s familiar with that thought, it’s me. I’ve visited and revisited this all-too-familiar territory more times than I can count. As a child I never thought I had a problem. My parents never thought anything was wrong with me. I maintained good grades, rarely got in trouble at school, and did my chores. I remember as a child doing things to harm my body. As a kid, you don’t analyze your thoughts, you just respond to them. My parent’s had no idea the torment taking place in my mind. It wasn’t until my breaking point in 2011 that I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. My mind was like a broken record repeating the words “Just give up already!” From sunrise to sunset they’d torment me, but I was not about to give up that easily and you aren’t either!
One of my favorite verses in the Bible is found in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I live by this verse! I believe it’s the reason I keep going. Believe me, there were numerous times in my life when I’ve felt I had thrown in the towel and given up on life. God used those moments to say to me “you may have given up on yourself today, but I NEVER will.” It’s okay to need some help in getting well. I still do. That doesn’t make us weak. We’re already too strong to take down and the devil doesn’t want us to seek anymore help. My friend, don’t give up. If you feel like you’re a total screw up. Like you’ve destroyed every good thing placed into your hands, or that you don’t deserve another chance. Believe me, I understand. Every second of every day I need to intentionally choose to ignore the pestering thought of “just give up already” and tune into God saying “just give it to me already.” I hope this encourages you today.